Systematic Chaos

Well,I've sent in a lease break form, which to me is a first step to a new life,with my lady whom i love very much. A bit of organizing,packing and by May will be off to new state and city for another direction in life. One i hope with more permanency and is sure to be a much happier life!!! While the excitement of it is overwhelming,in the background of my mind is always the fear of failure,which i try to push aside and think,no it will be ok!! New things always tend to get me in worry mode,but I just think how I feel when my gf is with me and worries just ebb away. Finding work worries me too-while I feel I'm a good worker,I don't want to be out of it for long. For financial and well being reasons. Above all this though i look forward to forging a new life with someone who see's things much the same as I do,similar likes and interests and just a total love of mutual things(and each other).This will be a first in my life,as i've always been struggling to fit in with partner's and their kids at times demands and expectations,leaving myself overworked and hollow quite often. My daughter will still visit,and it's important for her and me to maintain that close connection. But for me and my lovely gf,this is another step and a positive way to create that which we both want. A life together with much fun and experiences,and someone who will still hold hands with you when you are in your twilight years... YAY for new directions and chances in life-and for special people in it who mean so much to me,you know who you are :)