Systematic Chaos

Well, things are slowly building up towards my big move to be with my beautiful gf!!Having booked a trailer,broken my lease,booked a carpet clean and proceed to start packing,things are picking up at an ever increasing pace. to say I can't wait to get out of here is an understatement!!  I look forward to spending my life with Marjorie(her pseudonym hehe),getting to know her properly and sharing all things in life-good and not so good!!! There will be trials and maybe some adjustments,but I feel we can meet these challenges and together overcome any hiccups that may present themselves. As well as this there will be the joys of discovering new things,exploring our shared interests and building a stronger foundation for enjoying each others company for time to come. I have the utmost respect and love for her, and can't believe how she just gets me-something new to me in this world,and its so good to be loved back for being who I am,not for what I can be(as I've had too many times in the past).I may waffle on here sometimes-Its just I can't iterate enough what it all means to me.Words can't often describe all the emotions I feel-because some of them are new to me too!!!

Yay to the future ,to new beginnings and to love-we would all be lost without it.For to love is to live.

Have I ever told you how good it feels to hold you
It isn’t easy to explain

And though I’m really trying I think I may stop crying
My heart can’t wait another day when you kiss me I just gotta
Kiss me I just gotta kiss me I just gotta say

Baby I love you c’mon baby
Baby I love you ooh-wee-ooh baby
Baby I love I love only you

I can’t live without you I love everythinh about you
I can’t help it if I feel this way

Oh, I’m so glad I found you I want my arms around you
I love to hear you call my name oh, tell me that ya feel
Tell me that ya feel tell me that ya feel the same

Baby I love you c’mon baby
Baby I love you ooh-wee-ooh baby
Baby I love I love only you

Oh, I’m so glad I found you I want my arms around you
I love to hear you call my name oh, tell me that ya feel
Tell me that ya feel tell me that ya feel the same

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxR0JY-FMh8

I had a great weekend with my beautiful girlfriend-we had lots of laughs,good food,went out and spent quality time together and had a lovely family meal on Sunday!! I love spending time with her,enjoying food or listening to music or just doing things we love doing. I am so looking forward to moving to be with her-we have a fantastic rapport and can talk about anything,as well as find enjoyment in doing anything together. I feel I am so lucky-and as with these things so worried something will happen to take it away!!But thats just a result of my own lack of self worth-and will believe I deserve this as life has been teaching me the lessons to be able to appreciate good fortune instead of shrugging it off as random,and only meant for other people!!I love her so-and never want to let her go.